Easier to Hide

It's been a while since I wrote you
Haven't known what to say
I don't want distance to come between us
But I feel so far away
It's nothing that you've done
Who I am inside
Retreating in myself when fearful

There are things I struggle with
I don't know how to let you in
Open my mouth attempt to speak
Words fall flat I decide against
I'm trying to learn to trust
My heart pushes away
A never ending tension
I'm to blame

Sometimes it's easier to hide
I'm sorry
Sometimes it's easier to cry
I'm sorry